can't believe this · Saturday, 20 Oct 2007 | 03.54.44 PM
i thought i could use a break. i feel like it’s just made everything worse. escapist thoughts are filling my mind. and i don’t even know what there is to be angsty about.
i accidentally erased an entire post about this yesterday. or was it the day before. what the hell is wrong with me.
(“this is all i look forward to, this is all that there is. and i’m fine with that.” how i envy you. there you are, you could be anything, but you won’t. here i am, trying to be everything, but i am nothing.)
x
I just want to make sure i still exist. that i’m still me. but i’m so fucking disappointed whenever i see myself that i just wished i were someone else. i’m not me. angst angst.
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be me! so i could be you! (your post got me worried. no wonder you’ve been so… “concerned” these days…)
— k Sunday, 21 Oct 2007 | 02.24.48 AM #
Emo boi I shall poke you if you don’t stop being emo.
* poke *
Whoops. My bad—poked too soon xDDD
Cheer up, Vinny :) There’s no use hating yourself. Keep in mind that there’s only one Alvin Laddaran in in this world who can never be replaced in my life (or in anyone else’s life for that matter). That’s something to be happy about, right? :D Plus, you’re good at a lot of things that most people aren’t good in. You’re special in your own way—you probably just don’t know that yet.
Smile ^^ Tis fun to be thyself. =P Now boo your emo-ness away, Emo Boi. xDDD
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